Hopeless to Hopeful

I remember a time when I felt so hopeless. Empty. Discouraged. Angry. Miserable. Scared. Rejected. All those feelings that triggered hopelessness, went on, and on, and on! I felt like there was nothing to look forward to in life! Nothing made me happy. I searched, and still, could find no fulfillment. I wanted my life to be different. I wanted something, but had no clue on how to find it. I didn't even know what it was, or what I was looking for. I just knew that something had to change. Of course I was searching in all the wrong areas, looking in all the wrong places, and getting no where really fast! I wanted my longings to be fulfilled, but they remained unfulfilled. I got to the place where I felt so heartsick, despondent, and desperate. I trusted no one, and I manipulated many. I finally realized that living this life on my own terms was not working out, and I wanted and needed so much more. That is when I met my husband, and that is when I finally met Jesus!

Gradually I started feeling hopeful. My life was changing! My heart felt so much lighter, my life had meaning, and I could actually smile. I let go, and let God begin working in my life. I began to trust again, and I could see that God was fulfilling my dreams. I learned to wait on Him instead of manipulating or giving up on things. I began to learn that He had the power to fulfill my hearts desire, and I felt more hopeful each day.

I was learning to trust and have hope in the Lord. I was trusting His promises and His timing. I began reading the Bible, and really digging in. I remember the first time I read Isaiah 40:28-31, and feeling so much hope, that God was so powerful and everlasting. And knowing that with God, I could soar above difficulties, reduce the friction in my life, and manage my energy, so that I could run and not grow weary, and walk and not feel faint. What a reassuring promise!

Do you not know? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. Isaiah 40:28-31

I have learned to be hopeful in all situations, not hopeless! I have learned that without God, we have no hope. But thanks to Jesus, we have His promise of hope! No matter what we face, we can take comfort in knowing that He is there for us, watching over us always. I am so grateful that God's Word is full of His promises, and in His word I can always find hope! In His word I found my way out of the dark and into His light!

So when I am in situations where I begin to feel hopeless, and want to give up, I know that all I need to do is pray and open my Bible. God can always change my circumstances, He can work it out. It may not always be exactly what I want, or how I want it, but it is always in a way that makes me feel hopeful, and not hopeless! 

I am linking up with Karen Beth at FInding the Grace Within/Tuesday at Ten

The prompt this week is: HOPEFUL! 

How Big Is Our God

Have you ever stopped and imagined, just how big our God is? I have. And when I do, I am in awe! There are so many examples of His greatness throughout scripture, but at times certain verses make me just stop and think about how amazing, and how big He is! How blessed we are! How much He loves us!

Psalm 147:3-5 says:
He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds. He determines the number of stars and calls them each by name. Great is our Lord and mighty in power; his understanding has no limit.

I can't tell you how many times He has healed my broken heart! For so many years I didn't ask Him to, because I didn't know Him! I carried around such a heavy heart for my whole adult life, and finally surrendered at the age of 40. I was done! Done with bitterness, hurt, rejection, anger, misery, and fear. I knew that I needed God in order to be able to unpack all of that baggage.

I have at times tried to count stars. It doesn't take very long to lose track. Can you imagine calling each of them by name? Stars go way beyond our ability to see them. Even through the most powerful telescope, there is no way any human being could ever count all of the stars. Let alone call them by name. But God, He created each and every one of them, and He knows their names. Like His word says, His understanding has no limit! 

Psalm 8:3-9 says:

When I consider your heavens, the work of your fingers, the moon and the stars, which you have set in place, what is man that you are mindful of him, the son of man that you care for him? You made him a little lower than the heavenly beings and crowned him with glory and honor. You made him ruler over the works of your hands; you put everything under his feet: all flocks and herds, and the beasts of the field, the birds of the air, and the fish of the sea, all that swim the paths of the seas. O LORD, our Lord, how majestic is your name in all the earth! 

The same God who mends our broken hearts. The same God that knows the exact number of stars in the heavens, and calls them by name. That is the same God who has created the Universe. The same God who is working in our lives. The same God who is mindful of us, and calls us His Son's and Daughter's. He loves us so much that He sent His one and Only Son to humbly walk this earth, to submit to men, and to die on a cross so that we may have life in Him! 

So when I think about how BIG God is, my problems really seem small. I know that He can take care of all of my struggles, and all of my hardships. When I feel like He isn't doing things quite the way I would like Him to, I can trust that it is because He is handling my life exactly the way He wants to. He has the power to change things at any time, and if He doesn't, it is because His plans are better than mine! And I thank Him for that! 

Aren't you glad we have such a BIG LOVING FATHER? I am! 

I am linking up with Suzie Eller for #livefreeThursday. The prompt this week is How big is our God? 

I Am Taking Time

Recently my husband and I were asked to help out on Wednesday night with our Children's Ministry at Church. We normally do not go to Wednesday night services because of time. We both work full time, and we live 45 minutes away from our Church, and service is from 6:45 to 8:15 pm. Therefore, it would be late when we get home, and we are people who go to bed fairly early, and get up before dawn. So when I was approached, my reaction sort of surprised me. I immediately said YES! I wanted to take the time to serve, and to get involved with these kids. I was willing to sacrifice one night a week, to lose out on a couple of hours of sleep, and to take time to love these kids.

I knew right away that this was from God because I had been praying about ways to serve, and this is the answer to my prayer. I love kids, and nothing warms my heart more than to see young people serving Jesus, raising their hands in worship, and wanting to learn more about Him. This particular group of children are between 4th and 6th grade. Some of them come from the neighborhood and their parents do not attend Church. Some of them come from not so pretty home lives, and seem a bit troubled. Our mission is to love them and pray that we can plant some seeds in their lives, and hopefully the lives of their parents as well.

I didn't come to know the Lord until I was 40 years old, and have so many regrets for that, as well as not raising my own children in a Christian home. But we have been blessed with seeing two of our children become saved and baptized, and it is such a joy knowing that my children are walking with God. 

When I came to Jesus, there were so many people that came beside me and gave me love and guidance. They took me under their wings, and showed me a love that I had never known before. They took the time to mentor me, to pray with me and for me, and to guide me. They were showing the love of Jesus. That is my goal with these children. I pray that they will accept God at a young age, and have a long, beautiful relationship. I pray that they feel the love we have for them, that we love them like Jesus, and that we will be blessed with patience and understanding as we walk beside them. I am so excited to see what the outcome could be. God works in awesome ways, and He never ceases to amaze me! 

So YES, we are taking the time to love, mentor, and pray for these kids, and watch some beautiful things happen! 

I am linking up with Karen Beth at Tuesday at Ten. The prompt this week is {TIME}